I can't believe my mom died. No one's really gotten closer to me or anything, it's just too sad. It's awkward. I wasn't that close to her. I was getting to know more about her, but it's like I was never ready. It's sad for me to think she used to look after me as a small child. I got mad, too, too much, but I didn't do anything violent or physical I think. I did get upset online at the hospital and Hospice, but nothing too obvious. I was thinking about how they must have just dumped her after she died and think how they burned her body and she was nothing to them.