I feel at odds that I didn't graduate from music and wonder if I will ever be a film actress.
I feel beat up by the egos of other people who have come to classical music and performed as a group in school and were proficient in musical instruments or the competition in some professionals who go against me. My life might be ideal if I could play music proficiently. I used to do gymnastics, though, but not their competitions.
Why is it okay to mess up my possible opportunity but to be excited to boost the egos of others in disproportionate ways? What is the attention the older lady I like gets more important and may grow then over me?