I used to be well-respected.
It's such a degrading feeling and people not stopping like there's a reason.
I mean, people obviously are sensitive about their lives in relation to someone else's, like me or whoever is being used for that.
People keep thinking it's magic, just shoot for something low, lower than yourself, and you'll feel like you accomplished that which you aimed for, which was not good enough. Yea, you'll find yourself close to others if you aim higher, but hey it should make you feel better and alive, like exercise, better as time goes on. ... Maybe, their parents set them up to ruin it for me.