Music has become a tool to shine too much light on strangely expressionless toddlers and technically virtuosic Asians.
Sunday, February 21, 2021
It's sad you have to be a pro to say anything with music, when it's just for fun and can even be a pain for some people, in different ways (not liking music or it being hard to understand/play.) Then, why is it about strangely expressionless toddlers and technical virtuoso Asians?
I cleaned almost everything I have, this time getting rid of almost everything it seems because I might be moving to a group home.
I saved my violins, my flute, my piccolo, my music books, my German learning books, and some classical CDs I like.
I threw out my hair accessories except the black ones like pony tail holders and pins. I even threw out the children's dresses I got, figure they're just in the way. I may do a sweep of my clothes and get some more appropriate ones, like $6 long sleeve shirts at Rainbow. My dad had been saying I need to get rid of clothes. There's always the idea I get polo shirts and sweaters. I have 10 black pants, well one went missing when my aunt went to hem a few. I have like 8 or 9 nice jeans. I have a few non-uniform-ish things, too. I'm just so happy I finally did it. I can compress a bit more, too. Now, most of what I use is in 2 boxes, one for what I use and one for things I store like documents, which aren't many. I bought a bunch of stuff with the stimulus check in the end, and I seem to have returned or gotten rid of most of it, including the children's dresses, also coffee making things. I already got rid of my DVDs and CDs the other day. I have some books with passwords, too, these past 12 years online, some already unfortunately recklessly thrown out. I got rid of a bunch of things I use like for hair and junk from makeup. I sadly got rid of beaucoup art papers to draw or paint on. I can't see that baggage coming with me. I draw on typing paper and have colored pencils, though. I also have I think like 100 colored sparkly gel pens in a nice case I got. I only have minimal things otherwise. Some of this process was very nostalgic. I even took apart a huge DIY shelf. My room feels empty and meditative, good feng shui.
So, mainly, I have musical instruments, music books, learning German books, and a few favorite classical CDs.
I've got a MacBook Air and Chromebook, too. I might get rid of more furniture and like I said redo my wardrobe. I was gonna wear children's dresses, but it's too much of a waste. I mean, normally, I wouldn't wear them, possibly. I need more appropriate clothes. Maybe, I'll do some window shopping online now and post online. Looks like a good day's work and maybe time for supper. I do have my old hamster who may die. I ordered a more compact cage that never came in, too.
I get about $780+/month. I plan to save as much as possible and concentrate on good food as a diabetic, too. I have no car now, so if I want to eat out might take the buses or order it. My goal is to get off the diabetes and cholesterol pills. I have some vibrating, pulsing, trembling, and shaking from a dislocated ankle/foot, and it affected more of my body. It was from driving, when I flex my foot awkwardly on the break pedal. I haven't driven much for over 15 years. I started again this past year and got ot being comfortable on I4. This month, $100 went to fixing my messed up hair, dying and cutting. I don't know where the rest went. It seems some better prospects for this month. I can't wait until I'm totally done cleaning, hopefully soon. I may have more time and focus without cleaning in the way, may even get a job. I'm also still trying to get better at violin, even if just for myself. I would love to be a pro musician. I even majored in music but had to quit... I did feel temptations as better prospects of becoming an actress first or singer. I figured I could even get private ballet training with the money or learn organ again. I get confused with what's better for someone like me, piano or violin. I did piano first, though. Well, I got to start singing when I was 5 by myself. A lot of people never get to play music/piano like they want.. I guess piano is a private pleasure, strangely, just not always that symphonic! I did get rid of my keyboard, which came broken and was cheap, anyway.