Saturday, July 7, 2018
Let me address my issue
I had some problems feeling and was worried. I know I told my dad I felt bothered and I felt people were onto me throughout the day. I figured I couldn't let my mind wander, though I have before. I guess I was committing myself to something in doing so. I was worried, like, "Why do I keep doing this?" "Do I need it to help what others do otherwise?" ... or maybe "Is it my mixed race?" I'm feeling better about it, though I wonder if I will face stress problems because some people really stress me out when I try to be good. People blame me for being "different." Sometimes, people are on a roll and don't stop once they find I'm not acting normally for a time. Strangely, it goes away after the next day.