I know that I keep getting in more trouble until I can't be punished anymore in ways. I mean, I'm especially pointing out my problem that hopefully is or gets better. I do have a question that people feel ways I can't I need to do other things to feel, which isn't necessarily all that bad for others but so for myself. It seems that I can't avoid it if I think of certain things, which I guess anyone watching porn would be a similar situation. I dislike it, though, and have since.